Contradicting

I THINK LIFE IS REALLY CONTRADICTING.
When you have it, you dont treasue it. Seriously.
And then when it's gone, you go crying for it to come back.
(Treasure what you have) Oh, yeah right~

Note to self:
All good things will come to an end.
After hardsip, comes happiness. So smile!

Ok bye.

Oh, plus and minus.

Minus the negative thoughts, add some postive thoughts.
Minus the hatred, add some love!

I don't wish to feel this way either..
Haiz... ):
I wanna be like ______.
So you will ___________.

So what if it's gonna be me alone, God loves me still.

And, _______.

Kit kat

Have a break, have a kit kat~
If only someone can just come up to me and offer me a kit kat and say "Have a break!"
Yeah right, I am really just exhausted.

I got really tired of holding on.
What's the purpose of holding on?
Often I motivate myself by reminding myself about this quote:
Even if you come to the end of the rope, tie a knot and hang on.
But how long can I persevere?
Hmmmm, I doubt that you will see all this, so I am gonna rant everything here.
Learn to cherish things when they are around. Seriouslyyyyy.
Hey you, :)))))! Thanks for everything, seriously everything.
TTFN I guess.

You know what, let me tell you what!!
God is so real and awesome!!!
Everytime I think about Him, tears filled my eyes.
I LOVE GOD.

Bye.

Perfect love

OMG WHY ARE YOU SO CUTE? :)

If only I could be the apple of your eye!!! Haha.

You have to turned my sorrow into joy!

I LOVE GOD! ♥

Youth camp was super awesome! :)

And really, He turned all my sorrow into joy!!

So blessed I can't contain it

Please be happy.
Please please be happy.
Promise me that you will be happy alright.

Standing far away oberserving each and every of your actions..
Well, I feel contented already..
Knowing that you're happy and fine, I feel the same way too.
I will be happy and fine.

Know what,
I think I finally understand how it all started..
I guess it just started off all cuz of my wishful thinking..
I was thinking too much.
I was thinking too far.

Sometimes, life is just so contradicting and irony...
Gahhhhh, Idk why am I feeling this way.

Your love is more than enough for me, Lord ♥

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

I pray that you will be fine.
I pray that you will be fine.
I pray that I will be fine.

Why?

Why?
Why must things be this way?
Why must all good things come to an end?
Why? Why? Why?

Why after doing so much, the reward back is this?
Then why must I do so much in the first place.
After going thru many hardship, I was hoping to at least I will get something I desire. But apparently, not.

Why must life be this way?
WHY MUST I FACE REALITY?
WHY CANT I BE AWAY WITH FAIRIES?

WHY?
Do you know why? ):

Bye.

It hurts alot, to know the truth that you're leaving me...

Knock knock.

@1.44am
You would never know how much you mean to me..
I am crossing my fingers hoping that it's not me..
I am just praying hard now that you would .........

Please don't leave me...

I will run to You

I can kinda feel it..

So much of soul-searching these few days. (:

Amazing love, how can it be

You've been knocking on my door too long.
I am sorry.
I am sorry, really.

Thank You Lord.
You're awesome! ♥

Cry in my heart

Ok, I know the truth.
But I dont know what to do now.
But why all the false hopes?
You just leave me like that...
BUT WHY BUT WHY BUT WHY.

Acting to be so strong
but yet crying and breaking down inside.
Ouch.
And I doubt you would know that feeling.

Alright alright.
Note to self: It's time to have a reality check. Serious.
Why did the foolish me went to believe such impossible thing,
but now get myself all hurt.
Who to blame?
No one else, but me.

"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power"
-Ephesians 6:10
I will be strong cause God's with me....♥

Till here.
):

Because of Your mercy

Smile and pretend.
I would be okay I guess.

One moment of folly

Not you.
Not you.
Not you.
Not you.
Not you.

But you.

Uncertain yet...

You're my king!

I love God. ♥
He's awesome, really really!!

Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away.

- Philip K. Dick

it feels great to have you next to me

side by side.

disappointed.
):

The cure for sorrow is to learn something.

Hey..

Well, most of the papers are done.
However, most of the papers are screwed up. Seriously.
Esp. Physics and Chemistry.
No use crying over split milk. ):
Hope for the best and prepare for the worst then.
I am just aiming a pass for all my subjects?
Hmmm, I afraid I won't be able to make that happen....

Anyway,
Thank you awesome people for your awesome presents!
Thank you all for making 10 October 2010 seems so memorable for me! :)

Alright, till here.
Last 2 papers to go!!!
Tata.

God's holding your hand

Hey.

Yesterday was EL Paper 1 and SS.
And I think I screw up my EL paper 1. ):
Darn.

"Do not be afraid, God's holding your hand."

you know just that glance

i told myself, it's time to let you go

i learnt my lesson though, never let someone be your priority,

yet you are just a option in their lives.

it's true, really..

silly me

holding on forever

oh well, goodbye then

i doubt a miracle will happen

If only a miracle can happen right now

Meet the most important boy/guy in my life.

My brother!

It was his birthday yesterday.

Had he enjoyed the small yet cute cake I brought for him.

Hmmm, Mum is probably reaching HK now...

You know I really wish that a miracle can happen now

I really want more time to prepare for exams

I really want to rewind back the time

Haiz, I am indeed away with fairies.

Bye. :)

After so long

After so long then I realised

Egg on my face.
Argh.

I had my work cut out for me to complete revision before EOYs. ):
And it's so hard to cut the mustard.

Tata!
phrases rocks.

you see when the chips are down

i would need you to be next to me

Cool as a cucumber? No way.

Hey.

There's no time to stay cool.
I gotta lock and load. (Get ready).

Haha, no energy or mood to hide.
I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve.

Alright, tata.
Woooo, there's a total of 3 pharses in this short post. :D

I had a bad day.

Never ever be too complacent.
Never.

"Once bitten, twice shy."

Instead just be a humble bumble bee.

I NEED SOME SELF DISCIPLINE AND DETERMINATION.
I GOTTA MUG. SERIOUSLY.

Abide with me

(Fabulous time @ Universal Studios.)

Hi.

Again I gotta I'm totally not mugging hard enough.

And that's kfgbldmnfklbmldfkmbf bad.

Toodle-oo.

Faith will move mountains

Oh hiiii!

You know,
I have not been mugging hard enough.
That's bad. Really bad.
Argh.
MUG. MUG.MUG!!!

Oh hi I'm determination.
Come get me!
-You're one hard to get. I swear.

Byez.
Let's go muggy mug. Heh.

I realised I havent seen you for a month. ):

La dolce vita

Hi!!^^

I really like this skin cuz it's simple.
And simplicity is awesome. :)

Oh,oh I love my September holidays.
It's really cool, it's a combination of studying play. Wooyaaaa~

I gotta start mugging now!!!

It's not too late I guess.

A word in your shell-like

Meaning: I would like to talk to you...

Indeed.

If only...

if only you can be right next to me always

if only those precious moments can last forever

if only you were not that far

if only you can feel the same way too

You're indeed so near yet so far

Oh, hold on to that glimmer of hope?

Well pinch me, time to face up with reality.

ily you super cutie sweetie pie.

uh huh.

EVERYTHING.

Indeed, it's a long journey to go.

Really really tough.

If you are going to give up now,

look back again, why hang on in the first place?

A real leader faces the music, even when he doesn't like the tune.
-Anon

“Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something, and that this thing, at whatever cost, must be attained.”
-Marie Curie

So tired.

Really.

Lord, I offer my life to You.

I miss ULP'10.

Yesterday was ULP getting of certificates day!

And, all three of us passed!!! :D

Congrats to Genewaye for Director's Award.

Really happy day!!! Haha.

Now, I can go Livewire every week. Weehoooo.

Unit Leaders' Programme'10

To Lead and to Serve!

Naive little girl.

Naive little girl.

She took a taxi, and when she reached her destination,
the first person she saw was He.
Both He and She was running late.
Both of them ran together.

He and She took a picture together.
She has kept smiling to herself when she see the picture.

Well, how amazing one person can impact/make a difference in one person life.
He made her heart smile whenever She sees him.

I love yesterday.(10July)
Great day!! :)
- YOG First Aid Training at Campsite.
It's fun.
- LIVEWIRE!!! :D
Best part of the day.
- Performance Night at RI.
Super fun!

I am super lazy to elaborate. Hehe.

WATCHING WORLD CUP LATERRRRRRRRRR! :D

GOOOOOO SPAIN!!!!

Live life to fullest.

GDL SLC+CCA Leaders Overseas Camp.

My group4.

Best.Of.Best Leaders. :)

WE SUPPORT GERMANY! :D Haha.

My KAKA bottle! :)

What comes around, goes around.

An eye for an eye only makes the whole world blind.

Everything happens for a reason.

-

Love everything.

For everything is created by the AWESOME GOD.

And, how amazing and beautiful is His creation.

How GREAT is our God.

HI PEEPOS!

I AM BACK. :)

• Update again tomorrow.
• Currently uploading the pictures to fb.
• Praying hard that my camp report will be okay.
• I miss Livewire!
• I miss OTAH,FISHBALL, FRIENDS I MADE AT BATAM. D:

Alrights, bye!

Church tomorrow.

Gonna hear some lalala comments about my burned skin. :/

Stop and think.

PICTURES.

Diana, Germaine, Zoe did this.

Suppose to take down stuff during today's meeting.

Group picture. :)
Shannen! :D
YanJie! :D
Shannen! :)

Shannen! ^^

Hey peeps! :)

• Seriously I think my blog's dead now.
• No one's tagging. ):
• Anyway, posted up some pics taken on LaserQuest.
• And yup, LaserQuest rockeddd. :)
• My team was Shannen, Aveline and YanJie.
• Played two times, super tired already. Hehe.
• Well, that's the happy part of holiday.^^
• And yeah, having super busy June holiday this year!!!
• NO TIME FOR EVERYTHING D:
• Homeworks, proposals, report, meetings!
• Give me a break.

• Till here.
• Enough of grumbling~
• Gotta do Chemistry homework; Chemical Equations!
• BYEEEEE.
• ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS!
• Point form is coolllllll. Haha.

Journey.

Hello!! :D

Back from ULP camp.
The 4days3nights camp.
The tough, stessful, tiring camp.
I missed the half of the climax of the camp which is Exercise Independence.
Went home due to some ear infection. D:

Well, I am too lazy to type out everything.
But overall, this camp was good. Real good. :)

A camp to learn how to lead the Red Cross unit.
To learn to build up one's leadership skills.
To learn to communicate and work with people.
Everyday, I/Cs, Sir/Ma'ams rushing us to do this that.
Everyday, we will to hear some scolding.
But everyday, we learnt something. :)

ULP, where we learn to Lead and to Serve.
Charlie, where Great Leaders Unite.
And in Charlie one, where Extraordinary Leaders are born.

Till here.
Gotta do my homeworks!!! D:
Goodbye!

TOMORROW IS LASERQUEST! :D

Balance.

PERSEVERANCE.

STRENGTH.

MOTIVATION.

DETERMINATION.

Time to get started.

With everything...

POWER OF GOD'S LOVE! :)

Then sings my soul,

Hello! :)

Have not been updating this week I guess.

Laziness and tiredness was the main cause.

& yeah, the pictures are taken in church retreat.

Ps for the retard-ness. :D

Hmmm,

Sad to say, the attachment with NYP is over.

Gonna miss the place,food, instructor etc...

It was a nice one week there.

Learning so much different cool stuff. :D

Love the simulation most.

MR.THOMAS! Hehe.

Attended the ULP Contact Session2 on sat.

Was rather blur at first, as I did not come for CS1.

AOP was scary at the same time, stressed.

Many things to improve on. :/

And yup, so happy to know that Bee Hong is in my group!

Hehe, both of us were in Charlie1 in RCYC.

And now again Charlie1 in ULP.

Cooooooollllll. :D

Anyway, time to get streeeesssseddd(somehow), prepared for ULP camp.

And today,

went HL before going to Red Cross Batam trip training session.

Enjoyed myself at HL lah. :D

Loveee people around!

As for the Red Cross Batam trip training session,

was really bored at first.

Till, the mass dance!

Diana was my partner.

With her, how can I not get hyped up? Hehe.

The dance moves are funny+cute. :D

Alrights, till here.

Time to go my ULP proposal.

Byeee. :)

Awwww,

At Nanyang Poly. :)

Heyhey!

Yup, I am back from Batam.

Back yesterday, but was too tired so did not update.

It was a nice trip! :)

The place was good, the food was nice(except for day one), the sermons was great,

my room mate rockkk, kinda bonded with more people.

And last but not loeast, became closer to God. :)

However, the shopping part is ................ Haha.

Today went Nanyang Poly.

Good experience to learn more about poly life. :)

Gonna go and join in the classes tomorrow!!

Got back results today too.

It was super thumbs down results.

I AM GONNA BUCK UP.

I AM GONNA BUCK UP.

I AM GONNA BUCK UP.

Yeah.

Till here.

Nights! :)

And yup, will post up the pictures once I get them!

Jezebel, faster uploadddddddddd.

Ewwww, I've got an swollen chin. D:

"Well...

You've seen the cruel reality.

It's time to let you go.

No point clinging on, it will hurt you even more.

FACE REALITY.

Goodbye my love."

- Me.

Happiness.

MY LIFE IS AWESOME,

CAUSE I HAVE AN AWESOME GOD!

Last day of school.

Pretty nice day.

Church retreat is tomorrow! :D

I gotta enjoy manz.

Sacrifce many activities for this. Haha.

Bye.

Back on Sunday~

Take your breath away.

Hey. :)

DIFFERENT KINDS OF EMOTIONS.
Happy. Upset. Angry. etc..

Hmmhmm,
got back all the papers.
I am satisfied of course.
Seriously, I did not put in my best. D:
A miracle simply happened.
I can't believe I actually passed physics.
My legs went numb when I saw my results.
HEHE.
I passed what I was expecting to fail.
I failed what I was expecting to pass.

Here's something so coolzzz,
I am gonna go Batam THREE times this June Holiday.
Church Retreat, SLC+CCA Leaders Camp, Red Cross.
So coolzzzz. :)

I am soooo glad that my June holidays is gonna be rather packed. :D

Arghh, I have to stay back this whole week to teach some cadets evac.
I am lazyyyyy~

Bye.

Life is so funny.

So scary.

So unfair.

So dumb.

So FKBMGLKCNB CKGLML .

So amazing.

Don't limit your faith.

Hey hey! :D

It's a pretty great day today.

This morning, woke up with a pretty bad backache.

Due to sleeping at 1.45am. Haha.

Talking on the phone, and watching Catdog. ^^

Good nice phone chat.

Indeed, dont limit your faith.

In the morning was rather moodless,

cause I was non-stop worrying about my results. D:

Late afternoon, 4plus, went LW.

Chit chat, laughter and more.

Lazy to elaborate.

Got to know more people.

Really coolzzzzzzzzz ones. :)

After LW, went to eat Pastamania with the new LG.

Ordered cheese sticks and only ate two.

The guys helped me to finish. Haha.

Bused home with Eli & Jeremy.

Short day, but yet it's a day that helped me forget all my worries.

Sweet.

Sad to say, tomorrow can't go church!

Like sad to maxxx.

Must go for some batam trip briefing.

Anyway, here some piczzz during LW today.

TODAYYYYY:

Girls! :D

Group photo! :)

Fun shot. x)

Bye! ^^

Worries.

Hey there.

Yeah, EXAMS ARE OVER.

Finally.

Chemistry and Amaths paper today.

Chemistry was okok, not an easy paper too.

Amaths was _______.

Hmmhmm,

My weekends would not be sweet.

Spending my time worrying about the pathetic results I gonna get. D:

Haizzzz.

Bye.

Some overdue pictures:

(Mother's day celebration in church)

JinTing, Catherine, Sandy!^^

Jezebel! :D

Wing Yan. :)

Jezebel,Sindy! :D

Lift up your eyes,...

Walk by faith, not by sight

Sad day.

Emaths paper1& Physics today.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. D:

Emaths made super loads of careless mistakes. Grrrr.
But fotunately, there's paper2 that will save me still.

Oh and physics, nice.
The paper was complete killer.
Most of us got killed by the paper.
It's so amazing to see of the people managed to finish the paper.

Some lol arrangement.
Chemistry paper with Amaths on Wednesday.
D:(times 1000000000)

THINGS TO DO NOW:

• Hope for the best, prepare for the WORST.
• Pray hard!!! :D
• Chiong revise for Emaths paper2.

Till here.

"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances,

for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

Till 22May to see them again.

Miss them much. :)

English and Chinese paper 1 is done.

English was okok, on the other hand, Chinese probably cmi.

Went out to study with Venusa, Shermaine, Dawna, ZhenYu, Denverson, Edgar.

Ate lunch at Swenses with the girls.

Went subway to study.

ZhenYu joined in, soon after Denverson came.

Studied abit &chatted much, then Edgar came.

Chatted most of the time, there was loads to catch up with Shermaine&Denverson.^^

Edgar left, Diana came.

Went up to Popular, walked around.

And homed.

Mum is finally back from HK!

Woohoo.

She brought me new Converse shoes. Lol.

Highlighter Pink. :D

Church's tomorrow.

There is baptism! Cooolllllll. :)

Alrights, till here.

Byeee.

I LOVE PLANETSHAKERS! :D

This is my desire.

Hey peeps.

Ordinary week I had.

Church was fine today. :)

And yup, I am going for church retreat.

Woohoo!

I hope I can make it for both the retreat and YOG. ^^

Well, this coming week is gonna be kinda tough.

Mum is not around, so me & Bro are gonna survive on our own.

And also, this coming Friday is advanced paper already. D:

This long weekend holiday is really short.

But yet tons of homework.

Was doing the FIRST question of chemical equation,

and simply can't get the answer!!!

So, I just put it aside and start blogging to relieve the stress. Haha.

Sounds kinda cool actually.

Exams coming so soon.

I am not ready.

Kinda worrying...

So much to think about, so much to stress, so much to do,...

Pity dear brain cells.

Till here.

Gotta go complete my Amaths.

Byeee.

Anything God asks us to do, He supplies us with the energy and grace to do.

Hey hey. :)

• Uploaded pictures for slc gathering and yesterday's investiture.
• Yesterday's investiture was alright.
• Gonna miss the sec4 SC. D:
• Yesterday after school, I went pp with some great LEADERS.
• NCO of NCOs(NPCC):ZhiXin, Chairperson(Red Cross):Zoe, Exco(SC):Germaine, Vice-vice chairperson: Diana. :D
• Red Cross was super cool this morning! ^^
• I've done my maths hw!!!
• I am kinda sick ya! Bad cough. D:
• Not to forget Zoe who is also unwell, take care girl. :)
• MYE IS COMINGGGGGGGGGGGG. GRRRRRRRRRRR.
• Till here,
• Goodbye!

Investiture! :D

WOOHOO! ^^

UG & me!
ZhiXin, Zoe! :D
And I am holding the thing like a olympic torch. LOL.

JunJie.
And me with pace stick. HAHA.
Three shots, still failed. D:

One.
Two.

Three.

SLC Gathering:

Roshini, JJ. :D

ORANGE WATCH(S). :D

Jeslyn, Darunee. :D

Weitian, Mingli. :D

Joanne! :D

Wei sheng, Mingli, Putri. :D

Henry, Dennis, Nic, Jiemin, Isa. :D

DBT Pig.

Student Council Investiture tomorrow. :)

God knows, when you're doing the bad things.

God knows, when you're doing good things.

Although it seems no one care or no one realise, but

GOD KNOWS. ^^

Not supposed to feel this way, yet am. D:

Seek peace, and pursue it.

Hey all. :)

It had been a rather tiring week.
Two interesting events happened.

-SLC Gathering! :)
Hope the sec4 SC enjoyed.
Sure miss them lots!

-MOE visitors's visit.
Me&Henry brought them around for a school tour.
Gotta remember loads of things about the school.
But, it's kinda of a success still. :D
Anddd, happy thing was,
Mrs Teo, the GOH on Honours Day, still remember me. ^^
Woohoo! Haha.

3 things that I am really worried about:

1)Investiture is on tuesday.
Gotta write the emcee script and is undone still. D:

2)Wednesday is the presentation of EUA and CommunityService Award to the school.
And yeah, gotta say the speech. NOT READY.

3) MID-YEAR IS COMING SUPERRR SOON.
And, I am super not ready.

And, not to forget, to congratulate the sec3 npcc for stepping up.
Jyjy! :D

Alrights, till here.

Church is tomorrow!
YEAHHH. :)

Goodbye.

FOCUS.

FOCUS.

FOCUS.

Sometimes I wished that I never know the truth.

It will hurt so much...

Peace in heaven, and glory in the highest.

"I'm going to be happy today,
Though the skies may be cloudy and gray
No matter what may come my way
I'm going to be happy today."
- Ella Wheeler Wilcox

In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus.
-I Thess. 5:18

Be a kid forever. And never grow up.

Hello there! :)

Haha, I really enjoyed today.^^

MinisterTalk was alright.

Me, YingXue & Yvonne was on the news.

Haha, super dots kay.

Didnt even realise they were even shooting us.

But yeah we're just so random people standing at the back talking.

Hmmhmm,

Midyear is coming.

And I havent start revising.

Not good at all.

This weekend was complete slack.

Shall update less often and start studying.

Till here.

Byeee. :)

Some pictures again:

A CHILD.

With a really sweettt smile. :)

Worries. Care. Smile. Laughter. Love.

Pretty amazing. :D

^^V

HAHAHAHA. x)

AVERE! :)

Dear Sam. :)

Miss Kerry Lim. :D

Mrs Choo. :)

Baby Nigel! :)

Mum. :)

FRUIT OF THE DAY: Dragon Fruit. Yum!

Dettol protects, jacket! :D

Thumbs up!

Hey hey. :)

Just a short update cuz I am super lazyyy.

Yesterday was Honours Day.

Things was kinda changed.

But still it was an enjoyable day.

Good job to everyone! :D

And for today, really nice day.

Just so lovely. Haha.

BIG SMILE.BIG SMILE. :D

And for tomorrow, it's gonna rock again.

2 intersting events. :)

Okay,

till here.

GOODBYE!

Some pics taken yesterday:

Do we all look so smart? :)

They are all just like my FAMILY.

STUDENT LEADERS!

^^V
Formal shot again.
Gideon! :D
I look so like a dwarf next to him.
Best thing was I am wearing heels.

Haslam. :)

Gerald. :)